时间流逝

今天是你不在的第一个星期，我已经累倒了。虽然很累，但是还不想睡觉，看来我真的想把我自己给累坏了，再等你回来疼我。忙着做工的我，常常忘记时间的存在。忘记睡觉的时间，忘记想你的时间，忘记留时间给自己。今天，我又一天一夜没有睡觉了，等下还要急需做工。开始觉得累了，厌倦了，想休息了。

三个星期

三个星期，对你来说，代表了什么？

三个星期，对我来说，代表了什么？

三个星期，你会觉得，那只不过是时间

对我来说，它，代表着寂寞。

在这三个星期里，我除了做工和玩，就是在想你。

无时无刻都在想你，这感觉，很辛苦。

到底我是累了？还是没有勇气继续与寂寞纠缠？

Third Day Without you

I go back home today. I like to see my family but not placing myself in their shoes. I can't stay in the house that is full of noise and people as I will feel packed and headache.Maybe I get used to a quiet room without any disturbance and under air-conditioned. Nothing feels better than staying at such a quiet and comfort room like this.

Darling always mention the importance of family in our life, it seems I haven't understand the message inside it. I still the same girl that you know, never appreciate family's role in my life. Until now, I still don't like my family and I don't wanna stay at this home for more than 24 hours. To you, I may be a cruel family member. You might ask, how could you treat your family like this? My answer is: You might have understand my role as the eldest in the family, but you will never understand my growing way. I have been brought up like this, so this is what am I today.

This is the third day without darling staying around with me, this feels abit tough for me to continue living. No matter what it takes, life still goes on and I must live in an interesting way so that I can wait for him to come back to me. Love you darling. good night everyone.

Second Day Without you

Tonight, is another lonely night perhaps. Without you, without hug, without your snooring, what I have now is my tears and a heart that is missing you all the time.I just think that at this moment, I suppose to go to bed and sleep and yet, I cant sleep. Maybe I have been too dependable on you. Although I can go on my life without you, that is not enough for me to carry on a meaningful life. Working is the only way to forget my love to you. I just focus on work and I cant even smile. My smile shown is just an expression and not from the bottom of my heart. I have no feeling when I smile. Smile is just a tool for me to express my respect to customers and friends and to undercover myself.

The End of 2nd Sem 2010 - First day Without you

Finally, it has reached the end of the 2nd sem in 2010. I am wondering how is my result for this semester. I know I didn't do well in this semester as I only pay attention to other activities rather than studying. The day has come, whereby the most important person in my life will leave me for around 20 days, I just wondering how am I gonna pass these days without him.

After the final exam, I just focus on working  and take care of my beloved puppy, Sora. She is a normal dog and yet, she is super naughty and a nature destroyer which cause a lot of troubles to me. I can't say anything because she is my beloved puppy after all. I think this is the difference between this sem break and the previous sem break.

There is another question that I won't like to think or face, that is my darling will leave me for 3 weeks because he wants to go back to his home. Here comes the questions. First, what am I suppose to do in these 3 weeks? Go work. come back and clean the dog cage, watch drama for awhile and sleep. Wake up the next morning and go work and repeat the same routine again and again until my darling come back to me. Secondly, am I stupid to think all the nonsense stuff? Just like tonight, my housemate and best friend talk the mysterious stuff to me since they knew I will sleep alone starting from tonight. Oh my god...how am I gonna sleep like this? I scare of loneliness, darkness and all those mysterious stuff. I can't sleep for the first night without you, how about the rest of the nights? I don't know and I don't care, just sleep then...I guess.

The next thing is I will wait for you to come back, either day by day or week by week, just want to let you know I still in a good life. Maybe this sounds silly, and yet, this is me. May our love long last forever. Love you darling.