失恋的人

和你喜欢的人说再见，真的需要很大的勇气。
为了那么简单的一句话，真的花了很长时间去准备。
当你面对他的时候，却支支吾吾说不出口；
可是当你说出口了，却又当心他心痛受不了。
说出口的时候，又担心自己承受不了。
真的很矛盾，看到他那么心痛，我也心疼了。
我知道如果我不这么绝情，大家也不能分手了。
可是现在我连朋友也不能和你做了，真的很伤心。
我知道你现在很不好受，我也是。
我不能再找你，怕你承受不了再次失去的痛。
我知道你今天请假，没有做工，
看不到你， 我真的很不适应。
你在干吗？为什么没有来上班？
难道你还躲在角落哭吗？不要再伤心了好吗？
我知道是我伤害了你，我也在这里伤心流泪着，
你有看到吗？没有，因为我不想让你看到我这伤心样。
你会隐藏你的悲哀，我也会，
我想让你知道，我没事。
要坚强~

Rainy Night

In this night, I think part of the Earth is having tragedy now. There was a 8.9 earthquake happened in Sumatra, Indonesia, and part of Malaysian was able to feel the shake. There is a warning from the relevant government that there might be a tsunami happened around 9pm, Georgetown and Port Dickson are two of the hit points. Is anything going to be fine? At that moment, I bet everyone was wondering, is it the starting of the end of the world? Is it coming? Nobody knows it.

It is another lonely night for me that cant sleep. It is nothing big deal of, but, I just cant sleep. My body is tired, even my soul is tired, I just cant sleep well at night. I rather open my eyes at the middle of the night and starring at the laptop, do nothing in front of it. Guess I am just an empty shell without a heart. I don't dare to sleep, because I will be having night mares ever since I close my eyes and keep awaken by it. Maybe I am just being too tired, maybe I will be fine after a good rest, but most importantly, I need my darling by my side. I guess I really become more and more dependent on him in daily lives.

The weather seems to know my mood very well. When I am feeling lonely or upset, it will cry on behalf of me. Whenever I step out from indoor, sure it will rain. Now, it is 1.53am and yet, it still rains heavily. Pity Mickey that cant go out and do her business. XD