Recently, I don't really have much time to rest or sleep. i only focus on work and press conference. Once again, I ignore my personally life, especially to my beloved one. Sometimes, I wish I could have more time for me in a day so that I can do anything I want and it is always enough time for me to rest, work and play. To you, I may be silly. Why I always like to make my life so hard? I work because I don't want to depend on my family in finance. I study because I don't want them to disappoint on me. Most of the time, I feel like I want to run away from my life and be another person in certain sense. There is many pressure come from nowhere that keep on telling me what am I suppose to do and what not to do. Study, work and family, makes me tired and exhausted.
There are many times where I wanted to help in assignments but somehow, I never feel like I am part of it. Maybe it is my problem for being stranger in the community, it is partially my fault for excluding myself to mix with the community. Is it because of my looking? Why my look always be the resistance for me to mix around? I admit that I look ego, in fact, it is not my fault to have such a face.
After working and studying for few weeks, I totally exhausted. What I need now is to have good rest after the mob press conference and get myself out of work, I want to go travel.
