At this sem, I have to work while studying. I have over spent last sem, now I don't have enough pocket money. I don't want to ask from my family. Don't wanna increase their burden and sadness anyway. Furthermore, I also need to attend chinese orchestra practice because I have to perform in week 2 and week 3. These 2 weeks I have been so tired, luckily I got 2 days to rest in a week.
Now is week 2, the performance is on this Friday, and yet, I just attended one practice only, other time, I was working. Working, studying, practising for performance and wushu practice, I have to give up two of them so that I won't be so tired. I don't even have time for my darling. His kidney got problem, all I can do is stay besides him and give any help he wants, I feel so useless, can't do anything else for him. Why the God always give all these tests to me? Maybe He wants me to know more about concerning others, especially those who are close to me. May be He wants me to learn how to appreciate with what I have.
Lastly,may God bless my darling to be free from any diseases and stay healthy forever. I don't wanna lose him...for sure.
Monday, October 26, 2009
Days Without You (Part 2-end)
Day 7
This is the day where I usually went to my Grandma's house. Today is Moon Cake Festival. So, Mum brings us to grandma there for dinner, even my aunt and uncle come back from KL. Although I am happy to see them, I don't feel like I want to be with them all the time. I just wanna stay alone and rest. Miss you badly, as usual. At night, I have a phone talk with you, but we end it unhappily due to some misunderstanding.
Day 14
For the whole week, we had a bad conversation. I cried every night after you hang the phone. At that moment, I realized how weak am I in a relationship. Need your hug so much every night before sleep. I always think nonsense when I was alone or even before sleep.
Day 15
Finally I come back to Kampar. This is the place where I can be myself, a true me. No family in my life here, no baby's crying. All I have here is me and my darling. Here belongs to me. I start to work as I come back. This is the 1st working day for me at khakabo. Although the salary is quite low, but I am happy with it because I like the working environment there especially employees there, the only bad thing is I have to face that LCLY face, bastard han wei. At night, I go my darling's room to sleep. Thanks God that I am too tired that I can sleep tight tonight.
Day 18
This is the 4th day I work at khakabo. It seems like that bastard knows my working hour because I will be seeing him every time my working hour. Oh well, luckily my darling is coming back today, after this, I don't have to worry about anything.
This is the day where I usually went to my Grandma's house. Today is Moon Cake Festival. So, Mum brings us to grandma there for dinner, even my aunt and uncle come back from KL. Although I am happy to see them, I don't feel like I want to be with them all the time. I just wanna stay alone and rest. Miss you badly, as usual. At night, I have a phone talk with you, but we end it unhappily due to some misunderstanding.
Day 14
For the whole week, we had a bad conversation. I cried every night after you hang the phone. At that moment, I realized how weak am I in a relationship. Need your hug so much every night before sleep. I always think nonsense when I was alone or even before sleep.
Day 15
Finally I come back to Kampar. This is the place where I can be myself, a true me. No family in my life here, no baby's crying. All I have here is me and my darling. Here belongs to me. I start to work as I come back. This is the 1st working day for me at khakabo. Although the salary is quite low, but I am happy with it because I like the working environment there especially employees there, the only bad thing is I have to face that LCLY face, bastard han wei. At night, I go my darling's room to sleep. Thanks God that I am too tired that I can sleep tight tonight.
Day 18
This is the 4th day I work at khakabo. It seems like that bastard knows my working hour because I will be seeing him every time my working hour. Oh well, luckily my darling is coming back today, after this, I don't have to worry about anything.
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