What Is Leader?

At this stage, I do believe everyone is the leader of himself or herself, and yet, at the same time, they are also a leader of others, either in their study, working or family life. Everyone has the ability to be a leader, but how to become an effective and efficient leader?

From what I have studied in Team Building before, leader is the person which has the social ability to influence others to follow his foot step or order to do or act under his command. according to Alan Keith, leadership is the ultimate way to create a new path for people to contribute in certain things in order to make extraordinary stuff or miracle to happen. It also means the leader has the responsibility in organizing people to work together and how to achieve the goal together, too. At the same time, a leader knows how to take care of his team mates and not just only take them as tools to achieve the company's goal or the leader's goal.

Take me as an example, I ain't a good leader because I don't have the ability to do so. This has been proved since I had the first and second meeting with my teammates. What I did was trying to force them to focus on our issue and not used my heart to hear what they wanted to say. I understand that everyone is being nervous towards his or hers assignments, so do I. I was just trying to make our job easier and in fact, it has proved me wrong. A good leader will listen to his team's mind and not just focus on tasks and goals. I admit I ain't a good leader. So, I decided to be the leader of myself only. I believe I will be a successful leader of the society in some day in future.

Here, I want to say "Thank you" to my friends who tell me what am I facing from my teammates because you have given me a clear looking on my own and the team itself. Now, I know what they want and I will step back from the front line. Let the new leader to give the order. I can understand it if there is someone might say I am a coward because I don't dare to take the challenge. What can I say here is, My friend, this ain't about am I a coward or not, it is about how I respect myself as a leader of the team and myself.

大海

曾经何时
我听过这首歌

大海 杨培安


从那遥远海边
慢慢消失的你
本来模糊的脸
竟然渐渐清晰
想要说些什么
又不知从何说起
只有把它放在心里

茫然走在海边
看那潮来潮去
徒劳无功想把
每朵浪花记清
想要说声爱你
却被吹散在风里
猛然回头你在哪里

如果大海能够
唤回曾经的爱
就让我用一生等待
如果深情往事
你已不再留恋
就让它随风飘远

如果大海能够
带走我的哀愁
就像带走一条河流
所有受过的伤
所有流过的泪
我的爱
已全部带走


在这首歌里，表达了对爱情的绝望。在对某段的爱情感到绝望和气馁，大海起了很好的作用来把所有的悲伤带入海的怀抱。作者引用了大海作为爱情的结束，就像大海把全部的河流牵引至它的怀抱。大海本一望无际，绝望由此而生，也在此结束。用此来结束某段爱情，再贴切不过。

Time Flys

It has been awhile for not being here. Recently I am busy with my first chinese orchestra concert in UTAR and new subjects that I am taking now. There is many things to learn and so much to do at a time, I feel very stressful and exhausted. To me, all this efford will bring me the achievement in future, all I need now is my intention to work on them and be patient. I do believe hard work will bring me good achievement.


Time flys without my notification. This is the eleventh month since we get together. There are many things happened within this period, all the happiness, sadness and misunderstandings have brought us into another level of the relationship. All these have made us grew up and stabalize our relationship. The more time we spend time together, the more my love to you darling.


Usually, we seldom tell each other how much is our love, maybe this is the only reason why we seldom talk to each other. I prefer to be your listener, one and the only one. I like to hear your voice, this is why I remain silence all the time. I know you want me to talk with you, but I really can't talk much when I am with you. I know I have very little time for you everyday because I have to spend a lot of time for other stuffs, and I am so sorry about this darling. This is also another reason why I like to listen to you rather than talking with you.


Here is the end for this blog, I jz want to tell everyone here that read my blog how much is my love to you. Love you always darling.

Starting 2nd sem of Year one in PR course

After study at UTAR for two and a half years, finally i managed to score above 3.0 in cgpa. Now, I have started my second semester in PR course, hopefully I manage to maintain such a good result. In this sem, I need to prepare for chinese orchestra concert. For your information, this is the first time for the UTAR chinese orchestra unit to organize a concert and it has been long time for me to perform in a concert. During sem break, I attended everyday's practice from 9am til 4pm, just to practice and prepare ourselves for the concert. This is not as same as the previous concerts that I attended in secondary school, so I need to be prepared and do my best for the concert.

Tell you guys something. I am learning how to play "World of Warcraft" (WOW) from my bf and housemates. My bf has suit my character with the best gear and equipments and yet, I am still a newbie to this game, thus, I need a lot of training to catch up with them. It is a tough task for me as a noob gamer and for someone that don't know about WOW. Today is my second day for playing WOW and also the first time to play with my bf and housemates. I feel like I am a burden for them because I barely catch up with their steps and it is quite tough for me to play with such a good character. Oh well...everything has its starting point to start with, right?

On the other hand, because of WOW, I start losing self confidence because I really stress out. I play WOW because of my bf. I just want to get into his world and be with him all the time, but I knew it will never happened. Sometimes, I might think of boycourt WOW and stop my bf from playing it. I never stop him from doing anything that he likes, as long as he has time for me, but not like I am staying in the room with him and do nothing. This makes me feel boring and don't know what to do and start thinking nonsense. Maybe I am thinking and talking nonsense again....I had what girls wanted all the time, what else that I am asking for? There should be nothing...

心痛

你能够对我坦白，我很开心。到头来你的坦白却换来我们之间的吵架和愤怒，我知道是我小气，我没有肚量去接受这事实。那是因为我只在乎你一个，你是属于我的，我不希望有人把你抢走。你可能有听过“有一种爱叫做放手”，如果真的有一天，这天真的到来，我不知道我会不会把我的手放开。你曾经放开我的手，我很庆幸那时的我没有选择放开。今天，面对同样的情况，我还是不会放手的。虽然我的心好痛，我很不喜欢有别的女生接近你，因为我不想失去你。你是我的全部，因为你，我学会把我爱的人放在第一位。我真的很感谢你对我的坦白，只是我无法承受这犹如一把刀往我心里刺的心痛。你的一举一动，都能够影响我的心情，甚至是一生的幸福。从你的身上，我学会了把自己稳定下来，尽量不要再放纵自己。只有你，才会让我改变得如此之快，也如此温驯。我只会为你而改，我只会为你而活，我只会为你而爱。

FIrst Sem Break For 2010

Finally it has come to the end of the first semester, this is the moment that every student is waiting for. Usually what will a student do in holiday? Work as part timer? Stay at home? Go for vacation? This is life, lets make it more interesting! I don't know how you guys spend your holiday, I'll just tell you mine. To me, it is my life and I'm happy with it.

As usual, I work at DDS, which is one of the cyber cafe in Kampar. In fact, I am a runner for both DDS and Khakabo.Working is tiring me, but I am happy to work with them because I get to know more people and I even meet my friends that have not been seeing for a period. Another reason why I work at cyber cafe is because the working time is more flexible and I can make time adjustment between my study and working time. Although the wage is not high, it is just enough for my rental.

At the last week of the sem break, I will be even busy and tired. Why? Because I need to attend chinese orchestra camp from 25-29th May, from 9am til 4pm, then I need to work from 4pm til 12am. You may think I am crazy and I admit it, this is the only way for me not to think too much when I am alone. I hate to be home alone.

You may ask, how about my home? I can say, I don't want to go back, it is like jail, that's why I don't like to go home. Why would I say home is like a jail? This is because mum seldom let me go out and I only do nothing at home but online until I wanna vomit. Another thing is they seldom talk to me nicely. I have to make it clear that all my family members are grumpy person, including me, sometimes they make me feel like I live in jail because of their way of speaking and grumpy personality. I just wanna run away from it. Family is important, but I am sorry that I not that kind of person which can stay at home for 24 hours everyday. I need my life and freedom. They never understand how I feel, or maybe not, god knows.

At last, I will go for vacation to Cameron Highland next week. MUAHAHAHAHA. This is the first time I am going vacation with my bf and classmates since I study at UTAR 2 years ago. I still planning where to go and what to do. There is many things to do and yet, so little time for me to do all of them, I just can say, have fun then. Life is short and lets us appreciate what we have at the moment. Enjoy your time and HAPPY HOLIDAY MY FRIENDS! =P

世界上最爱你的人，也是世界上最伤心的人

我知道你能够看得懂我接下来要写的文章，我不敢奢望在你看了这文章后会有回头的一刻，我只希望你能够清楚知道我在想什么，我想要的是什么。


可能你和我都不曾想过咱们会走在一起，究竟是什么让我们走在一起？相信你我心中都没有答案，但是我们都相信彼此心中的感觉。彼此都是爱着对方的，所以才会想让彼此存在于各自的世界里，因为只有让对方活在自己的世界里，才能用自己的全部来保护对方，不让他受伤。当自己爱上一个人时，心里只想着要如何让他时刻都开心，而不会让他伤心。人非神圣，总会有犯错的时候，也会有情绪的。当你犯了错，我只会心痛，我不会骂你，不管是什么错，我都会原谅你，包容你所做的一切，甚至把全部不开心的事全忘掉。可能有的人会说我这么做是在逃避，我只能告诉全部人，我这么做是让我们的生活更轻松，不会有任何的负担，生活才会更好过，不是吗？


爱一个人，并不需要他的甜言蜜语，也不需要任何付出的证明书，只要心里是爱着彼此的，就已经足够了。既然我已经打开心房的门让你进去成为其中的一分子，就表示我已经全面接受你所有的弱点和优点。你不会说的甜言蜜语，我帮你说。你想要做的事，我会想办法去完成。这就是我爱你的方式。我和你一样，都是不善于表达的人，我只能通过行动来表示。很傻是吗？你也是如此的，不是吗？


不知不觉，我们在一起快要一年了。此时此刻你说你不曾告诉我你有多爱我，但是我都能知道你的爱有多深。时间长了，相处的日子长了，彼此都了解对方的性格与脾气，很多时候都会变得沉默寡言，彼此都不会特地去表达心中所想。可是很多时候，误会，就是这样产生的。可能我是属于比较静的人，而你也不会特意的表达心中的想法，所以误会才会发生吧。


不管怎么说，我们都是受过伤的人，保护自己是本能反应。任何人都会想要被爱，任何人都会想要爱上其他人。刚开始我们都是战战兢兢的爱，到后来是放开怀抱来爱，这过程是需要时间的，慢慢来，好吗？你总是爱对我说些傻话，我也一笑置之。因为你的傻话，我知道你爱我。世界上最爱你的人，也是世界上最开心、最伤心的人，认同吗？